When I get the question what do you want the world to know about you

It makes me sit back and question everything about, Kenzi….

to me, I would be described as faithful and true

So humble you'd never see me driving a Bentley

Lost and tossed for years and years 

I was bruised, and broken

I was everything less than a furze

And was eventually considered broke in

In what i thought was a perfect world

I always had clothes

It was always just me, furled

Blinded by a wilted rose

I was blinded till now

When I thought everything was perfect

So conformed you'd think i was an eyebrow

I never recognized characteristics of an addict

I had never been taught hate

None the less exposed 

At the minimal age of eight

I learned my  family was no longer closed

New, new faces, 

Awkward smiles and wandering eyes

New, new voices

How awkward it felt to be a prize

New cousins new aunts and some grandparents too

What i thought was complete had just been renewed

A new page had turned heres my queue

And with that brought on a whole new attitude

A few years later as we traveled down a road

Something sinister was introduced, little did we know

Some say it was more difficult than this ode

He was about to hit an all time low

How about a grand low of six feet

In a span of six months to that day

His father joined his fleet

After that none of us knew how to pray

Even when it seemed to hard 

It felt senseless

I was far too scarred

And just felt completely defenseless

Seven years later Moving in, moving out, 

Why oh so fast

It felt like a trap house

That would hopefully soon be in my past

Knives, and ice

I was always in fights

I had no vice

Leaving was in my sights

 It was winter i was all alone

Hiding behind a greenbelt fence

All that was seen was crone

I was lost with no defence

I had to make a plan

Hidden packed bags

My new chapter had just began

And i thought no surrendering flags

So i ran, ran way, far away

1 call then no more battery

I liked this game even though no one wanted to play

Don't worry i'll never be on the repository

For the sake of school so i thought 

I went back, the house i would be briefly attend

Peace is the only thing i sought

Until it just turned into a dead end

It was hopeless and so was i 

The house was surrounded

The day my heart became dry

At this point I was confounded

2012 I was the criminal, it was my fault

But i was with my siblings in better care

Not only my mind but my heart became as strong as cobalt

But little did i know it was so much pain to bare

From suspect to victim of my own mind

I had to be strong for them

Slowly i became blind

My eyes sparkled like a rare gem

From that point on I always needed a taste

I found i couldn't be happy without some salt and lime

I slowly became a disgrace

Smoking things that looked like thyme

Slowly my life was taking a crash course in destruction

So i stopped i needed to be that few percent

I became sober and focused on education

And i learned how to repent

 I got a job 

And had good grades

I became an ocd snob 

I was a jack of all trades

May 2014 i was finding my independence 

Adoption, 18th birthday, graduate

I would no longer have to be in attendance

With my future i scheduled a blind date

From that point on i thought i had it figured out

Taking care of myself, the right way of wrong

Little did i know i would soon need a bail out

To everyone i was a dying star but to me i was strong

I did my makeup and looked in the mirror

And behind the makeup and flesh

Like an etch a sketch it became clearer

I didn't know who i was like a foundling in a creche

Spitting image of my father

Same person as my mom

To everyone, i am a bother

How could i be calm

2016 i want to be me

But i don't even know who i am 

God has handed me the key

How do i do this without a gram

My heart has been too heavy to heal

I never grieved, no realization

I let down my walls of steel

My life is no longer painted in animation

Now i'm an all star

I am healing 

I will go far

Put my trust into kneeling

So when i get the question what do you want the world to know about you

I can confidently say i want them to know i'm finding myself 

Im learning to be my own person and how to be happy too

So for now i'm going to hang this up on the shelf